An illicit Lap

He was just busy in counting angels, he was busy in breathing , he was busy in filling his lungs with air,  he was getting ready for his arrival in the skeptical world,  he was busy in expecting real touch of motherhood. He was crying as his best effort to accomplish his inevitable arrival in this ironic world. All he need is warmth, pure love for nurturing. His angelic pink scared face was just expecting a gentle hold after setting free from his temporary home of womb.

Every day 361481 babies born in this world with same situation but land in versatile journey, defined by their luck. Out of all these babies some of them has no journey. Some of them handed in the warmth of motherhood And some of them are not wanted to be hold,  they were just born and  trying to survive and  trying hard to be clutched by someone, they do not know that they are just a repercussion of someone ‘s misjudgment.

Nurse took him out of the labor room with confusion and in searching of a lap for him to cry on. He was crying with his tiny  closed eyes with no malice on his face. He is alone in this world, when he didn’t  even know how to stop crying and open his true eyes to see the world for the first time. He is living the mistake of their negligence. He is living  evidence of when humanity has no price, has no value. That boy is on sale but no one ready to take him, humanity is on sale but no one is ready to save it. It is a beginning of one more human without humanity. Today is new year, we all are beginning our lives with new spirits and wishes once again. And that boy was also born today ……………

Memories

Memories are like a sigh that u breath in

mesmerized and whisper it out

like flash back of twinkling din

Of all those reasons in doubt

An alluring dream,

Bathing in a charming stream

A source of bewitching affection

Falling into exquisite imagination

A relishing  luscious recollection

of my illusory realization

A hearty melody to my sensation

Like whole world in celebration

A Thriving Tree

A-beautiful-picture-of-spring-with-green-grass-and-flowering-tree

Recently a very heavy thunder storm came and caused a lot of damage. In the morning one can see everything struck by a calamity; uncountable leaves, pieces of rubble, fallen trees, and broken wires. As I was wandering about the remains of heavy thunder I caught a sight of a tree in my lawn; almost fallen, tilted more specifically it was with half bared roots. It broke my heart because that was my favorite tree, that tree was not just a tree for me, I withhold all year for that tree to blossom beautiful white flowers. I envisage that tree every day in the desire it to blossom one day. That tree with blossomed white flowerets was always the inauguration of my spring.

I was hysteric that I might not able to see that tree again, I was afraid that I might not see my spring in this again because that tree was my validation of emotional depiction of spring. I thought that this is it, I had him this far and now it’s gone, I Endeavour to have consolation and conformation but It was all in vain, They said its dead. I never thought that tree was archly important to me; I reckoned what if I couldn’t see it Flower for another time, as it was just a tree………………

The days gone by the weeks and the months. After two months my father said “I think the tree is alive” he scratched the bark of it and see its flesh and the tree was alive!!, he got that it’s alive.  I accounted   deep down that I had lost hope, spring came and I forgot it. I don’t know why I restrained my expectation for  that tree to blossom again. On a day, there was a surprise to my senses, I descried effloresce of two flowers on it and the next day more and then days after that and then subsequently all the tree was bloomed with white florets, which I cherished eminently. It hit me, although that tree can’t stand vertical and it was worst that can happen to  a tree, it struggled. It thwarted when no one thought its  alive, it withstood calamity, it hindered our carelessness towards it. Of course we thought that tree is dead , we thought tree was gone, but it didn’t surrender, it fought, and it fought all along. And that day I was standing in front of the tree I was thinking it has striven its worst calamity just because he remained consistent. That tree can’t stand straight, calamity has change its form as it is tilted but then I concluded , tree is working on it, and it didn’t fail to remember to flourish in the spring.

Thing is, it was not the  tree who had forfeited pessimism it was me who did , I was the one who relinquished on the tree but tree didn’t, in the time when no one believed. Tree does not have emotions or feeling nor has  the ability to get hurt by any other circumstances and accusations. It held consistent, do you think having emotion is bad and we do not stay consistent in calamity because we are too busy to blame one another Or to our circumstances or occupied to feel self pity or engaged in getting attention because something bad happened to us. We are too busy to give up hope  rather to do something about it,  this is the predicament  that how we see the things. It was not the tree ,its life, it’s the essence and the perception that changes everything. Our thinking, our imagination, our perspective, our idealism, and if we can switch our Viewpoint then we are not in bad place, this world is not atrocious habitat because the calamity, the circumstances have to come in our day but the way we draw a picture of it or the way we react to that its where our life starts, our work begins, its where everything matters and its where differences are made.

selfworth

When u confront the world full of people they expect that either you tell them your worth or they are waiting to tell you your own worth by them, as Wyne dyer once wrote:

“self worth cannot be verified by others you are worthy because you say it is so, if you depend on others for                                                        your value it is others worth.”